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"html": "<img alt=\"\" src=\"https://res.cloudinary.com/mariposta/image/upload/w_1200,c_limit,q_65/clock-in-trees_r0hvtp.jpg\" /><h2>The person I once was isn\u2019t somebody I ever wish to be again. But perhaps in another ten years\u2026well, I\u2019ll be saying that about my present self.</h2>\n\n<p>There is no photo of myself I hate more than the one below (taken in the Fall of 2014). If I were captured by an Evil Mastermind, they could force me to divulge all my deepest darkest secrets by threatening to release this photo to my friends and loved ones. (<strong>But HAHA HA, the joke\u2019s on you Evil Mastermind!</strong> I\u2019ve preemptively published this for the whole world to see! <em>Bwha ha ha!</em> Ha. Ha?)</p>\n\n<img src=\"https://jaredwhite.com/images/jared-dweeb.jpg\" alt=\"a selfie where I look not great\" />(a cry for help)<p>Oh boy, where do we start\u2026that abysmal haircut, ugly-ass shirt, weird glasses, nice-guy-but-also-maybe-serial-killer half-smile, missing facial hair, bad upper lip skin visible for all to see\u2026I look like a corporate office drone who\u2019s been forced to process TPS reports in a windowless room all day and has <em>finally</em> been released to volunteer for the church social this afternoon. (Um\u2026guess where this photo was taken? \ud83e\udd13)</p>\n\n<h3>What Was Really Going On</h3>\n\n<p>My wife at the time was <strong>extremely pregnant</strong>\u2026the birth of our second child was mere days away. I didn\u2019t fully realize it at the time but I was suffering from chronic depression. There had been a major dustup at a startup I\u2019d been consulting for, and I was suddenly <em>persona non grata</em>. In fact things there would reach a boiling point <strong>during my parental leave</strong>. (Ouch.) Not to mention only a few months prior to this we had moved to an entirely different town <em>and</em> rented out our old house simultaneously! (\u2026which ended up an epic disaster, but that\u2019s a tale for another time.) <strong>I was exhausted.</strong> And that was <em>before</em> the arrival of a newborn!</p>\n\n<p>In other words, I look awful in this picture because I subconsciously <em>felt</em> awful. <strong>It was an exceedingly challenging time in my life on every front.</strong> In fact, most of the worst things which ever happened to me took place during 2010-2015. So in 2014, I was still right in the thick of it.</p>\n\n<p>However, little did I know in that particular moment that <strong>a surprising series of events would soon transpire</strong>, setting into motion huge life changes which eventually resulted in me starting a totally new and far more successful <a href=\"https://www.whitefusion.studio/\">consulting business</a>, <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/articles/what-its-like-to-live-in-portlandia\">resettling in Portland</a>, <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/articles/hello-singleness-my-old-friend\">going through a divorce</a> (shockingly painful but absolutely necessary), <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/articles/ice-cream\">reimagining my whole spiritual outlook on life</a>, and <strong>producing the <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/projects\">best art</a> of my entire career</strong>.</p>\n\n<h3>The Joy of New Identities</h3>\n\n<p>Originally this essay was supposed to be an indictment of my past self and a <em>hip-hip-hurrah</em> statement on why I\u2019m so keen to reinvent myself even now. However, upon further reflection, I realized how grateful I should be to my past self(ves), and how I should really offer <strong>Office-Space-in-2014-Jared</strong> nothing but grace. <strong>Because</strong> if I hadn\u2019t starting taking control over my life <em>then</em> and finding a more authentic purpose which was unabashedly <strong>me</strong>, I wouldn\u2019t be where I am today.</p>\n\n<p>So instead of feeling chagrin or anger as I reflect upon who I used to be, <strong>I can instead find joy.</strong> The joy of forging a new identity, brick by brick, layer by layer. Making some mistakes along the way, sure\u2026but mostly achieving some <strong>big wins</strong>. It\u2019s a never-ending process. Even though I generally feel much happier and more at ease with who I am today, I suspect I\u2019ll be even more \u201cenlightened\u201d in the future. I\u2019ll look back on this time with a good-natured eye-roll and a toothy grin. <em>Oh the things I didn\u2019t even know that I didn\u2019t know!</em></p>\n\n<p>I\u2019m looking forward to it.</p>\n\n<p><strong>Fail not for sorrow, falter not for sin,</strong><br /><strong>But onward, upward, till the goal ye win.</strong><br /><em>\u2013Francis Anne Kemble</em></p>\n\n<p><br /></p>\n\n<p><em>Photo credit: <a href=\"https://unsplash.com/photos/2YWS62tLATA\">Yaniv Knobel on Unsplash</a></em></p>\n\n\n\n <br /><p>\n \n <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/tag/lifehacks\">#lifehacks</a>\n \n <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/tag/mindfulness\">#mindfulness</a>\n \n </p>",
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Wrote another essay for my blog: jaredwhite.com/articles/findi…
It was originally me dumping all over my past self. Thank god I’m not that doofus anymore!
Then I rewrote it because…well, I took compassion on my past self. (A great episode in “The Orville” S2 also resonated with me!)
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"text": "\u201cYou will never hear a venture capitalist sound more \nlike a communist than when they are talking about #web3.\u201d Funny but true. @antoniogm as quoted by @TheEconomist economist.com/finance-and-ec\u2026",
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The Suborbital I²R program is now live & accepting applications! 🎉
This is a paid research internship on #WebAssembly, think of it as a less-cool but still pretty rad @recursecenter residency where you & your peers do a bunch of inspirational future-facing Wasm-digging! 🔮✨
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Back from watching Everything Everywhere All at Once. Damn good film, and one I think would even benefit from rewatching. Everyone’s been saying “go see it” for a reason.
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I feel this. I am angry, exhausted, and losing faith in humanity to do the *simplest* things to care for human well-being. Nope, must pursue $$$ at all costs. What's 1 million deaths here or there?
Mentally spiraling a bit in a 'I'm sick of being ill & acutely aware I'm in a dystopia & feeling it in my soul while imagining horrific scenarios & reeling from the extra...
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"text": "Mentally spiraling a bit in a 'I'm sick of being ill & acutely aware I'm in a dystopia & feeling it in my soul while imagining horrific scenarios & reeling from the extrasupermegahubris on display like some goddam horror movie i cant turn my eyes away from' kinda way rn \ud83d\ude14",
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When the Alexa platform tax interfers with the stated mission of being the "world's most customer-centric company". The mission loses, and the authenticity turns into mere lip service. One more opening for an authentic competitor. #Amazon
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"text": "Hey @amazon, how do I search for products that do NOT work with Alexa?",
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I increasingly find when I’m searching for information on some programming topic, I’m presented with a video.
Let me be very clear:
**I am not watching your video.** 😅
Videos are terrible ways to learn technical information.
(For me. As always, YMMV.)
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Zelensky:
> If they want to recover, “they have to learn to accept the truth.” Russians need leaders they choose, leaders they trust, “leaders who can then come in and say, ‘Yes, we did that.’ That’s how it worked in Germany.”
Exactly right. Russia must answer for its crimes.
Zelensky to the Atlantic: “When some leaders ask me what weapons I need, I need a moment to calm myself, because I already told them the week before. It’s Groundhog D...
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