fluffy beesbuzz.biz

Finally fixed login

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Tantek Çelik tantek.com

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    "published": "2026-01-06 23:42-0800",
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        "text": "Beyond aggregated and summarized stats, in 2025 I met a few amazing people (you know who you are), and started a few projects. Most of these projects started with an idea, or recognizing a problem, that inspired invention.\n\nSometimes the ideas came from observations, shared, questioned, distilled into insights, and sometimes new creations.\n\nDuring one such conversation over coffee last year, James (https://jamesg.blog/) and I noticed that our Spotify \u201cdaylist\u201d list names were often quite entertaining, despite their brevity.\n\nWe mused whether it was worth keeping track of the particularly fun or interesting names, even knowing they were automatically generated.\n\nIn September 2025, James created a page on his site, a simple HTML list of a few of his fun daylists names, and shared it:\n* https://jamesg.blog/daylists\n\nWith a single real world #indieweb example, it was enough to stub a wiki page:\n* https://indieweb.org/daylists\n\nA little over two months later, during the weekend of 2025 IndieWeb Black Friday Create Day: Build Don\u2019t Buy, I followed James\u2019s example and built my own daylists page with a similar list of names of daylists, adding the datetimes when I had taken screenshots of my daylists.\n\n* https://tantek.com/daylists\n\nRealizing it was a page of items listed in reverse chronological order with datetime stamps, it made sense to mark it up as an h-feed so a social reader could theoretically subscribe to it. The list items had the minimum viable information for h-entry markup: content and a datetime. Minimal information meant only minimal markup was necessary: one nested HTML time element, and a couple of class names.\n\nThe list item of just the daylist name I started with:\n\n<!-- a daylist item -->\n<li>\n\u00a0 cyberpunk synthwave wednesday early morning\n</li>\n<!-- -->\n\nThe name\u2019s coarse textual day and time of day was a handy bit of text to markup with the time element with a numerical date-time for parsers. That plus two h-entry class names:\n\n<!-- minimal h-entry markup for a daylist item -->\n<li class=\"h-entry\">\n\u00a0 cyberpunk synthwave \n\u00a0 <time class=\"dt-published\" datetime=\"2025-10-15 07:59\">wednesday early morning</time>\n</li>\n<!-- -->\n\nAs linked on my daylists page, that plus a little h-feed wrapper is enough to make a web feed that a social reader like Monocle can parse and display:\n* https://monocle.p3k.io/preview?url=https%3A%2F%2Ftantek.com%2Fdaylists\n\nMinimal incremental markup added to an existing human readable HTML page. \n\nNo separate feed file needed. No XML, XSLT, or JavaScript either.\n\nThe HTML is the feed.\n\nA feed that social readers, like Monocle, or Artemis (that James wrote) can directly follow. \n\nFull circle.\n\nAnd the year before that, James blogged about how publishing an h-feed is also a more efficient, and easier to maintain, method of supporting other formats:\n* https://jamesg.blog/2024/06/06/publish-h-feed\n\nThis is post 6 of #100PostsOfIndieWeb. #100Posts #yearInReview #webFeed #microformats #microformats2 #hFeed #hEntry #socialReader #socialWeb \n\n\u2190 https://tantek.com/2026/005/t1/year-movies-in-theaters\n\u2192 \ud83d\udd2e\n\n\nGlossary:\n\nArtemis\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/Artemis\ndaylists\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/daylists\nh-entry\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/h-entry\nh-feed\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/h-feed\nIndieWeb Black Friday Create Day\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/events/2025-black-friday-create-day\nMonocle\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/Monocle\nsocial reader\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/social_reader\ntime element\n\u00a0 https://developer.mozilla.org/en-US/docs/Web/HTML/Reference/Elements/time",
        "html": "Beyond aggregated and summarized stats, in 2025 I met a few amazing people (you know who you are), and started a few projects. Most of these projects started with an idea, or recognizing a problem, that inspired invention.<br /><br />Sometimes the ideas came from observations, shared, questioned, distilled into insights, and sometimes new creations.<br /><br />During one such conversation over coffee last year, James (<a href=\"https://jamesg.blog/\">https://jamesg.blog/</a>) and I noticed that our Spotify \u201cdaylist\u201d list names were often quite entertaining, despite their brevity.<br /><br />We mused whether it was worth keeping track of the particularly fun or interesting names, even knowing they were automatically generated.<br /><br />In September 2025, James created a page on his site, a simple HTML list of a few of his fun daylists names, and shared it:<br />* <a href=\"https://jamesg.blog/daylists\">https://jamesg.blog/daylists</a><br /><br />With a single real world #<span class=\"p-category\">indieweb</span> example, it was enough to stub a wiki page:<br />* <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/daylists\">https://indieweb.org/daylists</a><br /><br />A little over two months later, during the weekend of 2025 IndieWeb Black Friday Create Day: Build Don\u2019t Buy, I followed James\u2019s example and built my own daylists page with a similar list of names of daylists, adding the datetimes when I had taken screenshots of my daylists.<br /><br />* <a href=\"https://tantek.com/daylists\">https://tantek.com/daylists</a><br /><br />Realizing it was a page of items listed in reverse chronological order with datetime stamps, it made sense to mark it up as an h-feed so a social reader could theoretically subscribe to it. The list items had the minimum viable information for h-entry markup: content and a datetime. Minimal information meant only minimal markup was necessary: one nested HTML time element, and a couple of class names.<br /><br />The list item of just the daylist name I started with:<br /><br />&lt;!-- a daylist item --&gt;<br />&lt;li&gt;<br />\u00a0 cyberpunk synthwave wednesday early morning<br />&lt;/li&gt;<br />&lt;!-- --&gt;<br /><br />The name\u2019s coarse textual day and time of day was a handy bit of text to markup with the time element with a numerical date-time for parsers. That plus two h-entry class names:<br /><br />&lt;!-- minimal h-entry markup for a daylist item --&gt;<br />&lt;li class=\"h-entry\"&gt;<br />\u00a0 cyberpunk synthwave <br />\u00a0 &lt;time class=\"dt-published\" datetime=\"2025-10-15 07:59\"&gt;wednesday early morning&lt;/time&gt;<br />&lt;/li&gt;<br />&lt;!-- --&gt;<br /><br />As linked on my daylists page, that plus a little h-feed wrapper is enough to make a web feed that a social reader like Monocle can parse and display:<br />* <a href=\"https://monocle.p3k.io/preview?url=https%3A%2F%2Ftantek.com%2Fdaylists\">https://monocle.p3k.io/preview?url=https%3A%2F%2Ftantek.com%2Fdaylists</a><br /><br />Minimal incremental markup added to an existing human readable HTML page. <br /><br />No separate feed file needed. No XML, XSLT, or JavaScript either.<br /><br />The HTML is the feed.<br /><br />A feed that social readers, like Monocle, or Artemis (that James wrote) can directly follow. <br /><br />Full circle.<br /><br />And the year before that, James blogged about how publishing an h-feed is also a more efficient, and easier to maintain, method of supporting other formats:<br />* <a href=\"https://jamesg.blog/2024/06/06/publish-h-feed\">https://jamesg.blog/2024/06/06/publish-h-feed</a><br /><br />This is post 6 of #<span class=\"p-category\">100PostsOfIndieWeb</span>. #<span class=\"p-category\">100Posts</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">yearInReview</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">webFeed</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">microformats</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">microformats2</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">hFeed</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">hEntry</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">socialReader</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">socialWeb</span> <br /><br />\u2190 <a href=\"https://tantek.com/2026/005/t1/year-movies-in-theaters\">https://tantek.com/2026/005/t1/year-movies-in-theaters</a><br />\u2192 \ud83d\udd2e<br /><br /><br />Glossary:<br /><br />Artemis<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/Artemis\">https://indieweb.org/Artemis</a><br />daylists<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/daylists\">https://indieweb.org/daylists</a><br />h-entry<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/h-entry\">https://indieweb.org/h-entry</a><br />h-feed<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/h-feed\">https://indieweb.org/h-feed</a><br />IndieWeb Black Friday Create Day<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/events/2025-black-friday-create-day\">https://indieweb.org/events/2025-black-friday-create-day</a><br />Monocle<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/Monocle\">https://indieweb.org/Monocle</a><br />social reader<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://indieweb.org/social_reader\">https://indieweb.org/social_reader</a><br />time element<br />\u00a0 <a href=\"https://developer.mozilla.org/en-US/docs/Web/HTML/Reference/Elements/time\">https://developer.mozilla.org/en-US/docs/Web/HTML/Reference/Elements/time</a>"
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Rachel Maddow Deepfaked on YouTube with Millions of Views of Slop Videos

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        "html": "<p>As of right now, there\u2019s a deepfake AI clone of Rachel Maddow on YouTube called <a href=\"https://www.youtube.com/@MaddowsBrief\">\u201cMaddow\u2019s Brief\u201d</a>. It\u2019s apparently fooling lots of people, because overnight it\u2019s grown from 20K subs (when I first found it) to 38K. Just one of the slop videos, posted less than 24 hours ago, already has a million views.</p>\n\n<p>I reported two videos to Google last night. So far, nothing has yet been taken down. Many people in the comments are saying things like \u201cRight on, Rachel Maddow! Telling it like it is! Screw Trump!\u201d</p>\n\n<p>This is all generated slop. It is <em>clearly</em> not actually Rachel Maddow, and even if what \u201cshe\u201d is saying happens to be true when evaluated, it is still nonsensical. It is not grounded in any real truth claims by any verifiable human sources. <strong>It is a con job. It is spam.</strong></p>\n\n<p>Why is YouTube allowing this sort of thing to take place at all? From an ML standpoint, it should be relatively trivial to flag such deepfakes in an automated fashion and immediately escalate to human review\u2014especially for a new channel like this (it only started on Jan 1, 2026!) sporting a deluge of videos in a brief period of time.</p>\n\n<p>This is not some sort of \u201coh gosh, now what do we do?\u201d problem. <strong>This is intentional.</strong> YouTube &amp; Google have intentionally decided they don\u2019t care about deepfakes and slop. Because if they really wanted to do something about it, you wouldn\u2019t see this happening. Period.</p>\n\n<p>Without a <em>significant</em> change to the policies of platforms like YouTube around this stuff, it is the beginning of the end of the Internet as we have known it. <strong>We cannot allow this madness to continue.</strong> <a href=\"https://jaredwhite.com/tag/generativeai\">#GenerativeAI</a> is an existential threat to knowledge and truth.</p>",
        "text": "As of right now, there\u2019s a deepfake AI clone of Rachel Maddow on YouTube called \u201cMaddow\u2019s Brief\u201d. It\u2019s apparently fooling lots of people, because overnight it\u2019s grown from 20K subs (when I first found it) to 38K. Just one of the slop videos, posted less than 24 hours ago, already has a million views.\n\nI reported two videos to Google last night. So far, nothing has yet been taken down. Many people in the comments are saying things like \u201cRight on, Rachel Maddow! Telling it like it is! Screw Trump!\u201d\n\nThis is all generated slop. It is clearly not actually Rachel Maddow, and even if what \u201cshe\u201d is saying happens to be true when evaluated, it is still nonsensical. It is not grounded in any real truth claims by any verifiable human sources. It is a con job. It is spam.\n\nWhy is YouTube allowing this sort of thing to take place at all? From an ML standpoint, it should be relatively trivial to flag such deepfakes in an automated fashion and immediately escalate to human review\u2014especially for a new channel like this (it only started on Jan 1, 2026!) sporting a deluge of videos in a brief period of time.\n\nThis is not some sort of \u201coh gosh, now what do we do?\u201d problem. This is intentional. YouTube & Google have intentionally decided they don\u2019t care about deepfakes and slop. Because if they really wanted to do something about it, you wouldn\u2019t see this happening. Period.\n\nWithout a significant change to the policies of platforms like YouTube around this stuff, it is the beginning of the end of the Internet as we have known it. We cannot allow this madness to continue. #GenerativeAI is an existential threat to knowledge and truth."
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Tantek Çelik tantek.com

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    "published": "2026-01-05 18:52-0800",
    "url": "https://tantek.com/2026/005/t1/year-movies-in-theaters",
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        "text": "My year in movies in theaters, using Fandango > My Orders > History, my Swarm Timeline, and personal recollection, to aggregate a few lists and stats:\n\nI saw 9 new movies in theaters in 2025, two of them multiple times (dates are first viewing)\n* 2025-02-20 \ud83d\udc79 Captain America: Brave New World\n* 2025-05-22 \u2139\ufe0f Mission: Impossible - The Final Reckoning\n* 2025-07-20 \ud83e\uddb8\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2642\ufe0f Superman (2025)\n* 2025-07-26 \u24f8 The Fantastic Four: First Steps (2025)\n* 2025-10-09 \ud83d\udd3a Tron: Ares\n* 2025-11-15 \ud83c\udfc3\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2642\ufe0f The Running Man (2025)\n* 2025-11-19 \ud83e\uddcc Predator: Badlands\n* 2025-12-03 \ud83e\ude84 Now You See Me: Now You Don\u2019t\n* 2025-12-14 \ud83e\uddf9 Wicked: For Good\n\nIn these cities:\n* 11x San Francisco\n* Berlin\n* Boston\n* San Diego\n\nAt the following movie theaters:\n* 6x AMC Metreon Dolby\n* 2x AMC Metreon IMAX\n* Zoo Palast\n* Alamo Drafthouse SF HDR BARCO\n* AMC Boston Common IMAX\n* Regal Stonestown Galleria ScreenX\n* Regal Stonestown Galleria\n* AMC Mission Valley 20\n\nIn the following formats, in rough order of frequency then features/quality:\n* 5x Dolby\n* 2x IMAX\n* 2x Standard\n* 3D IMAX\n* 3D Dolby\n* HDR BARCO\n* ScreenX\n* Standard German dub\n\nThe latter three were new formats for me this year: HDR BARCO, ScreenX, and Standard German dub.\n\nMy preferred movie format is still Dolby, in particular in the Metreon Dolby theater. I\u2019ve been other \u201cDolby\u201d theaters (including other AMC Dolby) and none have measured up. Dolby theater audio quality is significantly better than any IMAX theater I have been in.\n\n3D IMAX can look amazing for the right film (e.g. Tron: Ares). In comparison, I was not impressed by 3D Dolby, or any other 3D projection+glasses technologies over the years.\n\nHDR BARCO was very high quality, however, having seen the same film (Tron: Ares, with lots of dark scenes) in both HDR BARCO and Metreon Dolby, I could not see a discernible difference in the visual quality. Perhaps the light pollution from the Alamo Drafthouse's under-table lights interfered with the quality of the HDR BARCO experience.\n\nI archived the page that Alamo Drafthouse had setup for the HDR BARCO Tron: Ares showing:\n* https://web.archive.org/web/20251011173709/https://drafthouse.com/sf/event/special-event-tron-ares-hdr-by-barco?cinemaId=0801&sessionId=74102\nUnclear why they took the page down.\n\nScreenX was an entertaining gimmick for the landscapes of Predator: Badlands. I would consider seeing another suitable movie in the format.\n\nWatching a film dubbed in German was an interesting challenge that pushed and exceeded my German speech comprehension skills. I had to use contextual cues, on screen, sci-fi terminology, and the Fantastic Four subject matter to interpret much of it.\n\nI constructed these summary lists by hand, and having completed them, I think next time it might work better to incorporate the raw data into a table with various columns for date, time, film name, theater, auditorium, format, and perhaps more like seat number(s) and the set of us at the viewing. I would not include classic \"IMDB\" fields like genre, director, writer etc. because all of those are independent of the particular theater/viewing and can easily be looked up on Wikipedia. Duplicating that info in my own personal notes would merely add noise to the signal of each specific movie theater experience.\n\nI\u2019m curious if anyone else has done something like this / is doing this to keep track of the movies they see in theaters, what info to capture about the viewing, what to note about the particular experience, and what to publish on their #indieweb site.\n\nThis is post 5 of #100PostsOfIndieWeb. #100Posts #yearInReview #yearInMovies #yearInTheaters\n\n\u2190 https://tantek.com/2026/004/t1/year-in-sport\n\u2192 \ud83d\udd2e",
        "html": "My year in movies in theaters, using Fandango &gt; My Orders &gt; History, my Swarm Timeline, and personal recollection, to aggregate a few lists and stats:<br /><br />I saw 9 new movies in theaters in 2025, two of them multiple times (dates are first viewing)<br />* 2025-02-20 \ud83d\udc79 Captain America: Brave New World<br />* 2025-05-22 \u2139\ufe0f Mission: Impossible - The Final Reckoning<br />* 2025-07-20 \ud83e\uddb8\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2642\ufe0f Superman (2025)<br />* 2025-07-26 \u24f8 The Fantastic Four: First Steps (2025)<br />* 2025-10-09 \ud83d\udd3a Tron: Ares<br />* 2025-11-15 \ud83c\udfc3\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2642\ufe0f The Running Man (2025)<br />* 2025-11-19 \ud83e\uddcc Predator: Badlands<br />* 2025-12-03 \ud83e\ude84 Now You See Me: Now You Don\u2019t<br />* 2025-12-14 \ud83e\uddf9 Wicked: For Good<br /><br />In these cities:<br />* 11x San Francisco<br />* Berlin<br />* Boston<br />* San Diego<br /><br />At the following movie theaters:<br />* 6x AMC Metreon Dolby<br />* 2x AMC Metreon IMAX<br />* Zoo Palast<br />* Alamo Drafthouse SF HDR BARCO<br />* AMC Boston Common IMAX<br />* Regal Stonestown Galleria ScreenX<br />* Regal Stonestown Galleria<br />* AMC Mission Valley 20<br /><br />In the following formats, in rough order of frequency then features/quality:<br />* 5x Dolby<br />* 2x IMAX<br />* 2x Standard<br />* 3D IMAX<br />* 3D Dolby<br />* HDR BARCO<br />* ScreenX<br />* Standard German dub<br /><br />The latter three were new formats for me this year: HDR BARCO, ScreenX, and Standard German dub.<br /><br />My preferred movie format is still Dolby, in particular in the Metreon Dolby theater. I\u2019ve been other \u201cDolby\u201d theaters (including other AMC Dolby) and none have measured up. Dolby theater audio quality is significantly better than any IMAX theater I have been in.<br /><br />3D IMAX can look amazing for the right film (e.g. Tron: Ares). In comparison, I was not impressed by 3D Dolby, or any other 3D projection+glasses technologies over the years.<br /><br />HDR BARCO was very high quality, however, having seen the same film (Tron: Ares, with lots of dark scenes) in both HDR BARCO and Metreon Dolby, I could not see a discernible difference in the visual quality. Perhaps the light pollution from the Alamo Drafthouse's under-table lights interfered with the quality of the HDR BARCO experience.<br /><br />I archived the page that Alamo Drafthouse had setup for the HDR BARCO Tron: Ares showing:<br />* <a href=\"https://web.archive.org/web/20251011173709/https://drafthouse.com/sf/event/special-event-tron-ares-hdr-by-barco?cinemaId=0801&amp;sessionId=74102\">https://web.archive.org/web/20251011173709/https://drafthouse.com/sf/event/special-event-tron-ares-hdr-by-barco?cinemaId=0801&amp;sessionId=74102</a><br />Unclear why they took the page down.<br /><br />ScreenX was an entertaining gimmick for the landscapes of Predator: Badlands. I would consider seeing another suitable movie in the format.<br /><br />Watching a film dubbed in German was an interesting challenge that pushed and exceeded my German speech comprehension skills. I had to use contextual cues, on screen, sci-fi terminology, and the Fantastic Four subject matter to interpret much of it.<br /><br />I constructed these summary lists by hand, and having completed them, I think next time it might work better to incorporate the raw data into a table with various columns for date, time, film name, theater, auditorium, format, and perhaps more like seat number(s) and the set of us at the viewing. I would not include classic \"IMDB\" fields like genre, director, writer etc. because all of those are independent of the particular theater/viewing and can easily be looked up on Wikipedia. Duplicating that info in my own personal notes would merely add noise to the signal of each specific movie theater experience.<br /><br />I\u2019m curious if anyone else has done something like this / is doing this to keep track of the movies they see in theaters, what info to capture about the viewing, what to note about the particular experience, and what to publish on their #<span class=\"p-category\">indieweb</span> site.<br /><br />This is post 5 of #<span class=\"p-category\">100PostsOfIndieWeb</span>. #<span class=\"p-category\">100Posts</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">yearInReview</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">yearInMovies</span> #<span class=\"p-category\">yearInTheaters</span><br /><br />\u2190 <a href=\"https://tantek.com/2026/004/t1/year-in-sport\">https://tantek.com/2026/004/t1/year-in-sport</a><br />\u2192 \ud83d\udd2e"
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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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        "text": "It's moving day for the cats! They are still suspicious but they like hanging out with us on the bed."
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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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        "text": "Can't believe we already found somewhere we should have added an outlet. So instead I drilled through the cabinets to run an extension cord from the one outlet we *did* put inside the cabinets, and now there's power for the shredder."
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        "text": "Got the new litter boxes all ready for the cats to move in!"
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        "text": "ok, got the TV box mounted behind the TV, it only sticks out like 3 inches and still looks pretty good on the wall with no cables visible"
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        "text": "did you know you can just buy cup rinsers for your house??"
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        "text": "we also moved the couch in today!"
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        "text": "It's kitchen organizing day!"
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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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        "text": "Lily insisted on getting a fancy doorknob for her office, but couldn't pick one out on her own, so I finally found this and put it in today!"
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        "text": "I had to swap the outlet for a recessed outlet because the printer is almost exactly the full depth of the cabinet \ud83d\ude05 I don't know how we cut it that close after building the cabinet specifically for this printer! Either that or the outlet could have been 3 inches higher and it would have been fine. Works fine now tho.",
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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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        "text": "I mounted this tiny Yololiv webcam on the back wall of Lily's office so she has a way to show off her wallpaper and desk on her livestreams!"
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Aaron Parecki aaronparecki.com

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Tantek Çelik tantek.com

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        "text": "My Year in Sport, using data from my Strava, Swarm, and personal notes & recollections, assembled into a simpler summary on my personal site.\n\n2025 activities according to Strava:\n\ud83c\udfc3\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2642\ufe0f1354mi + 160,077' hiking+running\n\u00a0\ud83d\udc5f 823mi + 119,453' running \n\u00a0 \u26f0 485mi trail running\n\u00a0 \ud83d\udee3 337mi road running\n\u00a0\ud83e\udd7e 526mi + 40,624' hiking\n\ud83e\uddd8\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2642\ufe0f 8h27m yoga\n\ud83d\udcaa\ud83c\udffb some number of weight-lifting sessions (less than one a week)\n\ud83d\udeb2 4.6mi + 413' bicycling \u2014 only one ride all year somehow(?)\n\ud83e\udea8 1 bouldering session (at Movement)\n\nRaces:\n\ud83c\udfc1 3 races, finished 2\n\ud83c\udf33 12k Bay to Breakers 1:55:31 https://tantek.com/t5c61\n\u26f0 50k Skyline: 9:34:51 https://tantek.com/t5dQ1\n\n2025 was a more difficult year than expected, in many ways, and it cut both the hours and frequencies of many physical activities.\n\nMy hours and frequency of yoga, weight-lifting, bicycling, and bouldering all dropped from 2024 to 2025. My goals for 2026 are to find sustainable regular rhythms for each of those, either by myself or with friends.\n\nDespite that, I made several improvements in 2025 over 2024:\n* Overall: 160,077' climbed, +9.4k' over 150,676' in 2024\n* Running: 823mi + 119,453', +20mi +8.3k' over 803mi + 111,155' in 2024\n* Hiking: 526mi just barely (+6mi) over 520mi in 2024\n* Finished a 50k! First since mid-2023.\n\nI have a few running goals for 2026:\n* incrementally faster Bay to Breakers over 2025\n* Broken Arrow 23k Skyrace, finish and ideally beat my 2024 time (6h52m)\n* finish a 50k trail race, my fifth 50k\n\nI don't have specific metrics goals, like total distance, or feet climbed, or any specific race times (other than beating last year\u2019s times). Those are all secondary to my goals.\n\nBased on how the past few years have gone, I believe these are reasonable goals, yet will take focus and hard work to achieve them.\n\nLastly, this personalized, #indieweb \u201cyear in sport\u201d, reflects much more of what matters to me than any summary from an online service. It\u2019s not perfect and doesn\u2019t need to be. It\u2019s a start and I expect to iterate and improve it next year.\n\nThis is post 4 of #100PostsOfIndieWeb. #100Posts #yearInReview #yearInSport\n\n\u2190 https://tantek.com/2026/003/t1/seek-2025-year-in-review\n\u2192 \ud83d\udd2e\n\n\nGlossary:\n\nYear in Review:\n\u00a0 https://indieweb.org/year_in_review",
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Turning in my Keys

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        "html": "<p>I officially retired on Friday, January 2, 2026. I finished the last tasks of my \u201ctermination\u201d that morning. I took the last load of stuff out of my office. I left my laptop at the tech help center. And I returned my keys to the Facilities office. The woman who took my keys thanked me for all I have done for the university over the years. And she congratulated me for getting out of \u201cthis hellhole.\u201d Her kind words about my many years at PSU made me cry.</p>\n<p><img src=\"https://i0.wp.com/cathieleblanc.com/wp-content/uploads/20260102_1154007E22198868089142040074.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1\" alt=\"Comic of one woman handing keys to another woman. Text: The woman at Facilities who took my keys as I retire today made me cry with just a few kind words\" /></p>\n<p>Over the past few weeks, there have been several gatherings for the many people who were leaving PSU on January 2. At each of these gatherings, any kind words have made me cry. It was annoying. Although I am retiring several years earlier than I expected to, I am happy to be leaving. I am excited about the future. I have lots of projects I want to work on. And traveling I want to do. And people I want to see and hang out with. Retirement is going to be great. And yet, the tears haven\u2019t felt like tears of joy. I know part of that is the anger I feel that many of my colleagues who left \u201cvoluntarily\u201d on January 2 did so because they were lied to about the alternatives. I worry for my colleagues who are not as close to their desired retirement age as I am. I am sad that so many of PSU\u2019s best teachers and scholars no longer work at the University. These mixed feelings\u2013joy and excitement mixed with anger, worry, and sadness\u2013are partially responsible for my tears. But I began to notice that the tears spring up (present tense because they haven\u2019t stopped with my official retirement date) when people say kind things about my time at PSU.</p>\n<p>I had breakfast with Scott earlier this week and he recommended a podcast that he\u2019s been listening to. <a href=\"https://www.cnn.com/all-there-is-anderson-cooper\">Anderson Cooper\u2019s <em>All There Is</em></a> is an exploration of grief. Scott particularly recommended the second episode \u201cGrateful for Grief\u201d with guest Stephen Colbert. I listened to it yesterday. Colbert is brilliantly insightful as he talks about how his life changed at 10 years old when his father and two older brothers died in a plane crash. A couple of his insights helped me to better understand my own mixed feelings about leaving PSU. Clearly, despite my happiness about leaving PSU, I am grieving. I think I am grieving the loss of an ending to my PSU career that coincides with the warm feelings that I have had about the university for most of my time there. I never imagined this is the way my time at PSU would end. This insight alone was helpful. But Colbert went on to talk about how people often don\u2019t know what to say to someone who is grieving. He said that when he was a kid, he felt alone in his grief because no one would talk to him about it. All he wanted was for someone to acknowledge his experience. That would have made him feel less alone. Humans just want connection to other humans, especially about events that are important to them. I think this is the main thing that makes me cry when someone says something kind about my retirement from PSU. They are acknowledging my long years of experience at the university, which makes me feel \u2026 seen? Less alone? Appreciated? I\u2019m not sure yet but the idea that the very act of acknowledging my experience is what makes me cry resonates. Colbert went on to say that our modern society has lost a lot of its rituals around grief. We no longer expect a surviving spouse to wear public displays of their grief for some set period of time, for example. Those rituals are mechanisms for public acknowledgement of the experiences of those who are grieving. <a href=\"https://lizahl.com/2025/12/24/resigned-no-relief/\">Liz wrote movingly</a> about the challenges of leaving the university at a time when the administration has ditched our traditions of acknowledging the contributions of those who are \u201cretiring.\u201d The lack of those rituals does make the leaving more difficult. Colbert then said that talking about grief, bringing it out into the open so that it isn\u2019t \u201csecret and weird,\u201d is so important in transforming that grief into something we can live with, or even be grateful for. Cooper gave the example of his mother telling the story over and over and over of how his brother died, almost like a litany. This resonates with me as well. For example, at a New Year\u2019s Eve party, my former colleagues and I talked about and dissected and analyzed situations and conversations from the last three years yet again. I remember thinking, even as I participated, that we were wallowing in the misery of what has happened. But Cooper and Colbert have reframed our discussions for me. We were working through our grief. We were connecting. We were acknowledging our shared experience. This will make us all feel less alone and allow us to perhaps get to the point where we are grateful for our grief.</p>\n<p>I have been thinking about this podcast a lot since hearing it yesterday, I am grateful for my experiences at PSU. I\u2019m working on being grateful for even the worst of them. For example, without the worst of them, I would probably not be retiring yet. And I am happy to be retired, looking forward to doing more of the things I love.</p>",
        "text": "I officially retired on Friday, January 2, 2026. I finished the last tasks of my \u201ctermination\u201d that morning. I took the last load of stuff out of my office. I left my laptop at the tech help center. And I returned my keys to the Facilities office. The woman who took my keys thanked me for all I have done for the university over the years. And she congratulated me for getting out of \u201cthis hellhole.\u201d Her kind words about my many years at PSU made me cry.\n\nOver the past few weeks, there have been several gatherings for the many people who were leaving PSU on January 2. At each of these gatherings, any kind words have made me cry. It was annoying. Although I am retiring several years earlier than I expected to, I am happy to be leaving. I am excited about the future. I have lots of projects I want to work on. And traveling I want to do. And people I want to see and hang out with. Retirement is going to be great. And yet, the tears haven\u2019t felt like tears of joy. I know part of that is the anger I feel that many of my colleagues who left \u201cvoluntarily\u201d on January 2 did so because they were lied to about the alternatives. I worry for my colleagues who are not as close to their desired retirement age as I am. I am sad that so many of PSU\u2019s best teachers and scholars no longer work at the University. These mixed feelings\u2013joy and excitement mixed with anger, worry, and sadness\u2013are partially responsible for my tears. But I began to notice that the tears spring up (present tense because they haven\u2019t stopped with my official retirement date) when people say kind things about my time at PSU.\nI had breakfast with Scott earlier this week and he recommended a podcast that he\u2019s been listening to. Anderson Cooper\u2019s All There Is is an exploration of grief. Scott particularly recommended the second episode \u201cGrateful for Grief\u201d with guest Stephen Colbert. I listened to it yesterday. Colbert is brilliantly insightful as he talks about how his life changed at 10 years old when his father and two older brothers died in a plane crash. A couple of his insights helped me to better understand my own mixed feelings about leaving PSU. Clearly, despite my happiness about leaving PSU, I am grieving. I think I am grieving the loss of an ending to my PSU career that coincides with the warm feelings that I have had about the university for most of my time there. I never imagined this is the way my time at PSU would end. This insight alone was helpful. But Colbert went on to talk about how people often don\u2019t know what to say to someone who is grieving. He said that when he was a kid, he felt alone in his grief because no one would talk to him about it. All he wanted was for someone to acknowledge his experience. That would have made him feel less alone. Humans just want connection to other humans, especially about events that are important to them. I think this is the main thing that makes me cry when someone says something kind about my retirement from PSU. They are acknowledging my long years of experience at the university, which makes me feel \u2026 seen? Less alone? Appreciated? I\u2019m not sure yet but the idea that the very act of acknowledging my experience is what makes me cry resonates. Colbert went on to say that our modern society has lost a lot of its rituals around grief. We no longer expect a surviving spouse to wear public displays of their grief for some set period of time, for example. Those rituals are mechanisms for public acknowledgement of the experiences of those who are grieving. Liz wrote movingly about the challenges of leaving the university at a time when the administration has ditched our traditions of acknowledging the contributions of those who are \u201cretiring.\u201d The lack of those rituals does make the leaving more difficult. Colbert then said that talking about grief, bringing it out into the open so that it isn\u2019t \u201csecret and weird,\u201d is so important in transforming that grief into something we can live with, or even be grateful for. Cooper gave the example of his mother telling the story over and over and over of how his brother died, almost like a litany. This resonates with me as well. For example, at a New Year\u2019s Eve party, my former colleagues and I talked about and dissected and analyzed situations and conversations from the last three years yet again. I remember thinking, even as I participated, that we were wallowing in the misery of what has happened. But Cooper and Colbert have reframed our discussions for me. We were working through our grief. We were connecting. We were acknowledging our shared experience. This will make us all feel less alone and allow us to perhaps get to the point where we are grateful for our grief.\nI have been thinking about this podcast a lot since hearing it yesterday, I am grateful for my experiences at PSU. I\u2019m working on being grateful for even the worst of them. For example, without the worst of them, I would probably not be retiring yet. And I am happy to be retired, looking forward to doing more of the things I love."
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    "name": "Turning in my Keys",
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